Not so well.

Feeling stressed.  Overwhelmed.

I don't have a for sure job in Chisasibi.  I don't know where I'm living in Chisasibi. My room is a disaster and it seems like nothing in my extensive To do list is getting complete.

And this house doesn't feel like home anymore.

I'm eating unhealthily and even impulsively, not exercising enough, not doing what I enjoy and even letting myself sit in front of the TV too much. (Even though I hate it!)

I don't like this me.  I need this change.  I want my own place, to make my own food, and my own schedule. (Even if it surrounds the school's.)  I need some peace and quiet.  I want to manage my own life and no longer be dependant on anyone else for money or anything.

And yes, there's a big part of me that wants to move to Winnipeg to be with Sam, but I need to develop my own ways of doing things first, and so does he.  (Mind you, he's always had his own ways and no one could possibly change that...)    But independance...  It hurts to be here now, but I know what I think is best.

I'm not well, but I want to be, and I hate that all I want to do is shush my mind for a while so I don't feel like I have to cry.

What I need is peace.